April232014

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the sound I heard when I was 9 and my father slammed the front door so hard behind him I swear to god it shook the whole house. For the next 3 years I watched my mother break her teeth on vodka bottles. I think she stopped breathing when he left. I think part of her died. I think he took her heart with him when he walked out. Her chest is empty, just a shattered mess or cracked ribs and depression pills.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s all the blood in the sink. It’s the night that I spent 12 hours in the emergency room waiting to see if my sister was going to be okay, after the boy she loved, told her he didn’t love her anymore. It’s the crying, and the fluorescent lights, and white sneakers and pale faces and shaky breaths and blood. So much blood.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the time that I had to stay up for two days straight with my best friend while she cried and shrieked and threw up on my bedroom floor because her boyfriend fucked his ex. I swear to god she still has tear streaks stained onto her cheeks. I think when you love someone, it never really goes away.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the six weeks we had a substitute in English because our teacher was getting divorced and couldn’t handle getting out of bed. When she came back was smiling. But her hands shook so hard when she held her coffee, you could see that something was broken inside. And sometimes when things break, you can’t fix them. Nothing ever goes back to how it was. I got an A in English that year. I think her head was always spinning too hard to read any essays.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s that I do.

It’s not that I don’t love you.  (via extrasad)

(via cauterizers)

12AM

holysimba:

Hairdresser: do you like it?
Me: yes thank you

*goes home and cries*

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April222014

castiel-is-a-bluebird:

staff:

juicylouture:

what if one day

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STAFF WE LOVE YOU

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11PM

thehalfwayhouseofillrepute:

buzzfeed:

This dog was unable to gaze at his beloved cat due to some menacing potted plants, but true love won in the end.  

AW

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11PM
bigtime-thrust:

kirraklein:

White lips
Pale face
Would ya
Change ya fate

holy shit

bigtime-thrust:

kirraklein:

White lips

Pale face

Would ya

Change ya fate

holy shit

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11PM
stability:

Angelina. She looks genuinely happy i love it [Via/More]

stability:

Angelina. She looks genuinely happy i love it [Via/More]

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11PM
transcripts:

a poem by Callisto

transcripts:

a poem by Callisto

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11PM

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11PM
“Ignoring your passion is slow suicide. Never ignore what your heart pumps for. Mold your career around your lifestyle not your lifestyle around your career.” i don’t know what to do anymore (via westorientaletters)

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11PM
10thdoctors-companion:

grapplinghook5:

10thdoctors-companion:

australian-government:

john green have had enough of your shit


bless John Green bless

You see, it’s a metaphor. He threatened to kill the movie, but hasn’t used the power to actually do it.

jESUS FUKCJNBRHS

10thdoctors-companion:

grapplinghook5:

10thdoctors-companion:

australian-government:

john green have had enough of your shit

bless John Green bless

You see, it’s a metaphor. He threatened to kill the movie, but hasn’t used the power to actually do it.

jESUS FUKCJNBRHS

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